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20 October 2005 @ 09:55 am
What happened? I can't see.  
That's what I said. What happened? I can't see. I can't feel anything. My eyes are slow to bink, to move, to focus. Maybe coffee is in order? Who knows.

Brendan pissed me off this morning. Ever since he got laid off, he hasn't been doing shit but sitting around the house getting stoned. And it's ok to take a few days, get back on your feet and what not. But it's been almost three weeks and he hasn't even attempted to look for a job.

I work all day. I don't expect him to sit at home and spit shine everything. But he could at least do a little laundry, or fold some clothes. Yesterday I walked into our room and there's a pile of socks sitting on the bed. A fucking pile of socks. Did he save those special for me to fold? I didn't fold them. He won't even empty the trash, or the stupid fucking dish washer. How HARD is it to do that? I'm sure all he does all day is look at porn sites and jack off.

He pisses me off so bad. Today I was running late for work, and right before I got out of the car he grabbed my arm and said, "What should I do today?!"

I blinked at him. "Do? What should you *do*?"

"Yeah, what should I do! I don't want to be bored all day."

So badly I wanted to tell him to get off his lazy ass and look for a job. But I said, "I don't care." And walked away. But I really do care. How do I say something and not piss him off? Or should I piss him off? Christ.

I'm going to rake the lawn today.